Dear Diary:
word of the day:
quan da ry n, pl –ries: a state of perplexity or doubt syn predicament, dilemma, plight.

Here’s the thing: I’m in a quandary about my boyfriend, Hugh.

Reasons to have Sex
Feels good (so far)
I’ll become an adult (I want to take the next step)
I love him and I want him to be happy
We’re going to be together forever, anyway
It’s the 21st century
It’s what everybody does
I don’t want to lose him by saying no

Reasons not to have sex
I’m scared…they say it hurts the first time
I’ll become an adult (you can’t go back again)
I can’t decide

My two best friends have no problem telling me what to do. Kelly says, “What difference does it make? Nobody stays together anyway,” but Hannah says, “Are you crazy? It makes a big difference. He’s just using you.”

And my mom? She spends three-quarters of her time at the hospital, and the other quarter pestering me.

I’m worried about the changes that are coming. Hugh won’t be with me at school next year. He’ll be seven hours away at college. Will he forget me? And if I say no now, will I lose him forever?

Rhonda Herrington Bulmer is a freelance writer and speaker on the subject of teen sexuality. Her writing credits include various pieces for business and promotional activities, columns and newsletters. Her work has been published on CBC Radio and in Cottage Life magazine. Rachel’s Manifesto is her first novel.  She is available to speak to youth on the subject of teen sexuality and personal value. Click here for our contact form.