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December 31st, 2014
To be or not to be
by Rhonda Herrington Bulmer

DSC_0154In my circle, the adage “we are human beings, not human doings” is oft repeated.

Meaning, of course, that we should not be so goal-oriented in the course of our lives that we forget to be aware of each moment and be present in their midst—whether it is a good moment or a rotten one.

I am guilty of always making goal lists, especially at the beginning of the year: big lofty ones. I rarely fulfill all of them. In the past, this process has frustrated me. I never stopped to appreciate all things I did accomplish.
In the gospels, Jesus says, “He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.” To our Western minds, the rain would seem like bad times. But to those biblical writers living in the desert, I suppose that the rain was a great blessing indeed rather than the sun. In other words, we all receive blessings, even when we don’t deserve them.

This New Year’s Eve, 2014, I give thanks for all my blessings and in all my hardships, I continue to give thanks. I’ve been given precious time with my children this year, particularly the eldest who is newly self-employed and a grown-up. Was this the last Christmas she would spend under my roof? In another 12 months, will she be on her own? Will I have to negotiate for time and attention from her when in all the years past, she clamoured for mine?

Time will tell, but considering all this it would have been a shame to spend Christmas caught up with holiday stresses, financial and otherwise, forgetting what a pivotal moment it really was.

I am grateful for creative writing opportunities this year that stretched me thin (well, not physically) and I hope 2015 will build on those experiences. It is difficult to know which thing to pursue because the older I get, the less time I have and therefore time becomes far more precious than money.

Whether I’ve deserved these blessings or not is debatable. They are simply showered on me, I believe, by God. It is up to me to accept them, embrace them and be the best steward of them that I can.

So my New Year’s resolution this year is to be while I do. And never let the latter overcome the former.

All the best in 2015, friends.

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